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[21 Aug 2006|04:23am]
[ mood | blah ]

4:10 am.
good time for a new entry right?
i thought so too.
i havent updated in like a month.
yeah actually exactly a month.
hm what to talk about?
i dont know.
i type really choppy.
i hate paragraphs. they are annoying.
lifes pretty good right now.
i like it.
hopefully it'll stay this way for a while.
today, well i guess technically yesterday, was a lot of fun.
it was erzas party.
fun shit.
we had to deal with the po-po twice.
two fucking times in like four hours.
damn we cause trouble.
korey sweet was there. with like 30 other girls.
hes pretty awesome.
i owe him $4.
[if you couldnt tell by now this entry's gonna be long.]
i stayed until like 9:30.
then i came home.
and i talked to evan.
which is always amazing.
i love that kid. a lot.
thing's are going really good.
for all you haters that think this won't last,
it will.
yeah i did say haters.
you can quote me on it.
i cant sleep anymore.
i sleep like 5 - 6 hours a night.
sleepings a waste.
but then again,
right now im not sleeping
and yet still managing to waste my time.
my head is really jumpy at night.
i switch from topic to topic really rapidly.
two boys couldve kissed in front of me today
but fucking parents
picked me up early
k done with my spaz.
im actually sorta tired right now.
seeing as its 4:25 am,
i can understand.
last night i feel asleep around 5:00 watching pimp my ride.
white enough?
ive embarrassed myself enough for one entry
peace homedawgs.
and yet again, more white boy talk.
its all good.


Best Story EVER [21 Jul 2006|09:47pm]
[ mood | high ]

Story by ERZA + ALLIE

Today I went to creative writing. Erza was there. I said hi, and she said fag. So I was like why am I a fag. And she pulled my hair. So then all my hair came out.
I started to cry.
She said stupid fag.
I said why I am a fag
She said. Because you always bring Jason
I said ohh.
I was stapling my hair back together as she said this.
We were going to resolve this if it was the last thing I do.

At lunch I was eating an orange and Erza stared at me
“What?” I asked
“You’re a fag” says Erza
“whyyyyyyyyyyyyy?” I say.
And she smacks me.

I’ve had enough. I thought.
“Erza you’re always so mean to me. Please stop its not very nice.”
Just then she grabs my stapled hair and knocks me down to the cafeteria floor.
Everyone laughs at me.
Even Jason. My boyfriend.
What was going on?
My soul was sad

So that day I called Erza.
Ring Ring Ring.
No answer.
Maybe I should call in *67 number.
So I did.
“Hello?” says Erza.
“Erza it’s me... allie”

She’s confused.
“Allie who?” she asks

“allie the fag” I say.

“oohh” she said “what do you want?”

I say hold on cuz my mom is calling me but she didn’t hear me.

She hung up. I call again and no answer. I go into the bathroom.
Maybe she doesn’t like me cuz I’m sooo fat. I think.

I go over the toilet and start pooping. No, this isn’t right. I look at the magazine by my foot.
The headline reads “how to be bulimic!”

I turn to the page. It says “bend over the toilet, stick your finger in your throat, and puke” out your nasty fat”

So I do it.
For my calculation I lose 4 pounds INSTANTLY!

Soon I lost 8 more pounds. I was looking snazzy.

As I gazed into the mirror longingly, looking at my tatas and nanas, I look at my phone.

It says I have 69 missed calls.
My phone was on silent so I didn’t answer it
All the missed calls were from Jason. My boyfriend.

I go to my contacts list, and I press send to sexy lady. That was Jason

"Hello?" I hear a whisper. And panting
"What are you doing?" I inquire.
"Ohh." I say, still looking at my tatas and nanas.

i was just standing there in front of the mirror. my boyfriend was moaning and groaning. after about 10 minutes i said, " I’m sad." i grinned in the mirror as I said this.

My boyfriend wouldn’t answer me. All I heard was panting. About 5 more minutes later i said it again. " I’m sad"

Jason kept groaning and moaning. "Jason??" i say. No answer. Then suddenly i hear a beep beep beep he hung up. I start to cry and rush over to his house. i let myself in and go upstairs. it smelled like sex and cum and i heard a girl laughing

i storm in there thinking he’s cheating on me when really it was his little sister putting stickers on his weenie

"hey Jason. i thought you were cheating on me. but it was your sister putting stickers on your weenie"
"uhh... yeahh." Jason said
i sat on his bed, but i by accidentally sat on one of his banana flavored condoms. it was used. i smelled it. then i said, “Jason im sad”
"Why?" he asked
"Because no one likes me. I’m a fag." I say.
"Who called you a fag?" said Jason

“Join the club” he says. “the masturbating club?” I ask. He looks at me and smiles. Then he sticks his tounge out. Then he starts laughing like a a little girl. “Jason...Whats wrong?”

“you mean what’s right?” he says. I’m confused. He points at his weenie. I look at it. His sister is sucking on it.

We both laugh.
“Kids…their adorable” I say.

"yess..they are..".
"so jason. whut should i do. how do i stop becoming a fag?"
"ohhhhh. a little to the right. upper. nooo uperrrrrr.- wait whut?"
"how do i stop being a fag?"

His sister takes off her top. Reveling her small nipples. She gets on top of him and humps him.

I open his closet and take out a brand new banana flavored condom. I give it to him and say “ill just leave you too alone” and leave the room.

I look at my missed calls. 69 of them. But this time it was from my mom.
I call her.
“hey you called?” I say.
“yes I am mad! Rawr!” my mom yells. “but I wont hit you or punish you!”


[13 Jul 2006|04:50pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

last few updates
but today im happy :-D
i get to go out with two of my bffs
jess and jer yay
coney, then watching movies
so score hoes.


[13 Jul 2006|11:49am]
you dont love him
you love me.

[11 Jul 2006|01:43am]
[ mood | crushed ]

no no no no no
no fucking way
no fuckinggg way
you should have told me
i really cant deal with this
im really going to die.
my heart is going to explode.
k i dont care who knows.
i dont care.
i love you alison.
i really fucking do.


[04 Jul 2006|12:52am]
[ mood | loved ]

i love alison.
that's about it.


[03 Jul 2006|12:05am]
not again
not this time
i love talking to you
i love being with you
i cant handle it
because every single time
i fall
i fall for you
and you dont feel the same
at least not anymore
and i know
that it is my fault
and believe me if i could
i would take it back
but your too deep for that
everything scars you
and as much as i hate us when we dont communicate
i can almost say
i hate it even more when we do
i dont want to hurt anymore
i dont want to cry
i dont want to do this anymore
but can i really help it?
i swear i feel it coming back from you
i swear its a mutual relationship
i wish this would stop
or start again
either way
it wont happen
i dont know anything
nothing at all
except that
and that will never change.
i love you
i have always loved you
i will always love you.

[02 Jul 2006|11:01pm]
[ mood | dflksdjf ]

yesterday i was home basically all day
then i was supposed to go to fireworks with henriqueeee
but silly parents wanted to go to fireworks too
and they went to this other place
so blahhh
pissed me off
today i went to my aunts house for her bday party
people were smoking a lot
i feel the tarrrr in my lungs
then i came home
and cpu
and chilledddddd



[30 Jun 2006|09:21pm]
[ mood | bored ]

today i was outside chillin with alex for a while
we played this brain game thingy lol
it was fun
then i went inside for a while
after, i went swimming at the jcc
and there were some hotties,
so its all good :D
then we went to like farmer jack and bought stuff?
and we went to blockbuster and rented aquamarine
i came home and watched
i guess it was okish?
now im bored as usual
or something



[29 Jun 2006|09:57pm]
[ mood | happy ]

today was realllly cool
i went to the mall with allie and jason
we had a lot of fun
i bought a death cab tee, underwear, and RENTTTTT stuff.
i got the soundtrack and dvd.
i am soooo happy :D
now my summer is complete


[29 Jun 2006|12:03am]
[ mood | frustrated ]

these lyrics define me:
life goes on
but im gone
i die without.



[26 Jun 2006|12:04am]
[ mood | blah ]

k my birthday party was a success
it was a lot of funnnn
i watched rent like 800 times this weekend
wow i love that movie.
sunday was my dads bday.
it was fun
alan came
we chilledddd
thats abouttt it.
oh yeah.
we broke uppp :-(


[21 Jun 2006|09:21pm]
[ mood | giddy ]

today was the best day ever because of 3 simple words:

top model marathon.

[18 Jun 2006|10:02am]
[ mood | happy ]

henriques party was a lot of funnnn
gooood food lmao. weiners.
the best part was,
was when my parents rolled up
with the windows down
the stereos blasting russian rap
so funny
my dads and OG
fo sho.


[16 Jun 2006|09:49pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

wow funnn day
first tyler, jeremy, alex f, andrew k, and usamah came overrrr. we ordered like 293484 pizzas. they were goooood. after tyler and jeremy were over fer a while. we had fun ;) then i went to the pool at the JCC with my grandpa and my sister. that was cool too. GO TANNING! GO SEXII LIFEGUARDS! i had a good time. then i came home and went to the movies with jesse to see nacho libre. ATTACK OF THE FAT LADY + HER TUNNEL! tomorrow is the grad. party at henriques house. wow thats gonna be fun. JEREMY KNOWS WHY! thanks buddy, i so owe you one lmao. ariteeeeee ill probably update tomorrow or somethingggg.

[15 Jun 2006|12:09am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

high school
bigger wow

today was fun.
and you looked hot.
so it makes it even better :D


[14 Jun 2006|04:34pm]
[ mood | blah ]

im happy for you
really i am
but i cant lie
i reallyyyy despise seeing you together
especially right in front of me.
i just want you so bad.
you dont even know.


[11 Jun 2006|09:48pm]
[ mood | happy for once :D ]

i had a good talk
with a good person yesterday


[10 Jun 2006|10:03pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

ahh havent updated for a couple weeks

well today i went to the mall with chad and jesse
it was a lot of funnnnnn
we skipped and sang the wizard of oz lmfao
we went to max and ermas and chad was spying on me and jesse
when we were "making out" lmfao
the ppl there hated usssss
it was lots of fun
annnnd i got a picture of jesse eating the abercrombie models nipple lmfaoo
its so hottt
we popped cherrys with mrs. heitsch also :D

funnn day

then i came home
and now im sort of lonely
i really miss you.
come backkkk


[25 May 2006|09:21pm]
[ mood | happy ]

havent updated in a while
ill start with the weekend
friday i went to see the da vinci code
it was pretty cool
fabio was there
(he stabs his dad)

then on saturday i went to allies with scenar
we went on her roof
and i was playing the harmonica
and her and scenar were dancing
and a bunch of orthodox people walk by
and like stop across from us and watch
lmfaaaooo so funny
fun night

sunday was gayy
i had basketball
and thats about it

monday was school so wrjklwfkl whatevs
tuesday tooooo but ty ty and jerms came over yayyyy
and today was the choir concertt :D
and and i sawww KELLIE
so much fun
i miss her a lot.

well after the concert i got ice creamm :D
cuz i did an fabulously delicious job ;)

im done


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